From 'Why Me' To 'Why' Awareness : The first step in the spiritual journey

It starts with a question you don't even know you're asking. Somewhere underneath the daily noise of work and relationships and the quiet hum of surviving, something in you keeps asking: why does this keep happening to me?

That question is the beginning of your awakening.

Step One: The Trap of "Why Me?"

For a long time, my professional life felt like a cycle of short-lived bursts and sudden exits. I lived in a state of "I-Why." Why were my colleagues so political? Why did people do me wrong? I was trapped in a victim mentality, convinced that the universe was happening to me.

When you are in this layer, you feel special in your suffering. You believe your pain is distinct, your situation unique. But the first real shift happens when you realize that "specialness" is just the ego in disguise. Whether you are 21 with fresh wisdom or 40 searching for inner calmness, the patterns are the same. Variance and hierarchy are human inventions; in the realm of consciousness, we are all just processing information based on the conditions we’ve gathered. I wasn't special. I was just repeating a frequency.

Step Two: Flipping the Narrative

The moment I stopped asking "Why me?" and started looking at "Why awareness," the dialogue flipped. I realized I wasn't a victim of short tenures; I was a Lucky Charm.

I had a pattern I couldn't explain: I would accomplish three years of work in a matter of months. I would deliver massive value, the universe would provide the achievement, and then, fear would kick in. The fear of survival, the fear of "what’s next," the fear that led me to leave.

But when you change the narrative in your mind, you change the capacity of your consciousness. I stopped seeing those exits as failures and started seeing my role as a catalyst. My destiny was to do exactly what I did. By changing the story from “they let me go” to “I completed my mission,” the blame vanished. Judgment was replaced by awe.

Step Three: From Linear Time to the Eternal Now

Physics tells us time is linear : past, present, future. But in the spiritual journey, you realize that your habits of thinking can actually change the past. When your internal dialogue shifts, the "memory" of what happened to you transforms.

When you align your thinking, your patterns, and your presence, you hit a state of "No Fear." You become empathetic toward your colleagues because you see yourself in them. You stop being a "people pleaser" and start being a "people person." In an organizational logic, this doesn't always lead to a title change or a rank increase, but when you strip away the corporate definition of "growth," you see how much you have actually evolved.

Step Four: Becoming the Instrument

The final layer of this Sadhana is surrender. My practice became a simple prayer to Maa Kali and Bhairav Baba: “I see the patterns. I understand the lessons. Now, hold my hand.”

I realised that being nice isn't a weakness, and empathy isn't a liability, if they are used by an instrument that is grounded in the Divine. I stopped repeating the patterns because I stopped trying to drive the car from the backseat of the ego.

We are all just 21-year-olds with accumulated layers. When you peel them back, you realize you aren't here to win a race; you are here to be a joyful light. You are here to make a difference in the days you are given, and then move on with love, knowing that you have fulfilled your role.