That Rickety Journey From Fear to Faith

For a long time, I didn’t even realise how afraid I was.
Not the dramatic kind of fear, but the quiet, everyday kind.

The kind that whispers, be careful, don’t trust too much, something will go wrong.
It slowly becomes the background music of life.

I would walk into new conversations already guarded.
Begin new projects already imagining how they might fail.
Meet people while secretly preparing to be disappointed.

And I thought this was being “smart”. But all it really did was make the world feel heavy.

One day, without a big breakdown or turning point, I simply felt tired of living like this. 

Tired of bracing for impact all the time.

So I started with a softer thought.

Instead of telling myself,
everyone is against me,
I said,
maybe I am protected.

Instead of thinking,
something will surely go wrong,
I whispered,
maybe everything is unfolding exactly as it should.

It felt awkward. Almost naive.

But slowly, something inside me began to open.

I noticed I was listening more and defending less.

I was walking into rooms with curiosity instead of caution.
I was trusting my instincts again.
And life responded in the gentlest ways.

A message arrived when I needed reassurance.
A conversation happened at just the right time.
An opportunity appeared not because I forced it, but because I was finally ready to receive it.

This is the journey no one prepares you for.

From fear to faith.

From holding on tightly to learning how to let go.
From trying to control everything to trusting that there is something greater holding it all together.

I don’t have all the answers.

But I now believe this, the universe is not clumsy.
It is quietly, beautifully orchestrated.

And every time I choose trust over fear, even in the smallest way,

I become a little more open,
a little more alive,
and somehow, a little more magnetic to the life I once only dreamed about.

If you are carrying that quiet fear too, try this tonight:

Before you sleep, tell yourself gently: 
I am safe. I am guided. I am meeting the right people at the right time.
You don’t need to be perfect at faith.
You only need to begin.